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(droplets echoing)

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(water sloshing)

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(girls singing faintly)

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GIRLS: ♪  I don't think that I could choose just one  ♪

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-♪  Where did all these smart girls come from?  ♪ -(pounding on door)

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Go away! I'm taking a bath!

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LAURA: Dad's ten minutes away!

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I know, and I'll be out! Just go blow up balloons.

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GIRLS: ♪  On the floor, in the car  ♪

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♪  On a seat in a bar  ♪

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♪  Wherever I go, that's where they are.  ♪

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(girls stomping, clamoring)

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Ms. Swift, anything to say to all the young women?

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(high-pitched voice): People haven't always been there for me,

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but music always has.

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-(laughter)
-Me, next! I want to next!

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No. It hurts young brains. You can't do it.

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-Your brain is just
as young as mine, Lila.
-No.

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(high-pitched voice): I am a mature woman.

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(laughter)

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What are you guys doing?

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You had one task-- balloons. Come on.

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(high-pitched voices):
-We're trying our best.
-We have an hour left, okay?

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-(car doors shut)
-Oh, what was that?

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(overlapping chatter)

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(shouting, clamoring)

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Kristen! (whistles)

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He's here!

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(girls clamoring)

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Coming!

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(indistinct chatter, clamoring)

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Hey.

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(sniffles)

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-No!
-Hey! What, what...?

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-We need ten minutes!
-Family? Well, then I'll huff,

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-and I'll puff.
-Oh, girls,
he just wants to see you.

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-Come on.
-(girls clamoring)

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He just wants to see you, he just wants to see you, come on.

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Get the banner.

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Oh, I'm sorry I've been away so long.

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We've been fine.

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-(Andy moaning)
-Oh, my God!

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You look beautiful.

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Thanks. I've been outside more.

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Oh, my God! Daughters!

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-Come here! Come here, oh.
-(girls clamoring)

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Daddy!

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-LYNN: Tell us how much
you've missed us.
-ANDY: Okay.

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Here we go.

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(high-pitched voice): What we need around here is discipline.

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(laughter)

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-Discipline.
-(indistinct chatter, clamoring)

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Oh.

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(exhales)

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I need sex.

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Oh, yeah?

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Well, we'd better get down to it, then.

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Yes.

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No, no, no, no, no, lights on.

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-(laughs)
-I want to see what I'm doing.

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Okay.

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(grunts)

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-Oh, what's wrong?
-No, it's nothing. I, um...

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I leaned against the stove. I-I burned myself.

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-What? Where?
-On my stomach.

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-Ow. Let me see.
-No, no, no,
it's really nothing.

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Hey, hey, let me see.

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What the heck? What? The stove did that?

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Yeah. I was making pancakes.

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I'll be right back.

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-It's been a long, long time.
-Yeah.

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Have you forgotten how to do it?

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-I may need a few lessons.
-(laughs)

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I put my hand here, I think?

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-Ah, do it a little lower.
-Oh.

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-Oh! (moans)
-Oh, I'm sorry, I forgot.

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Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no. Do that again.

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Kris, I don't want to hurt you.

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I said, do it again.

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Ow! (moans)

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I don't think that's a good idea.

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-(screaming)
-Hey, hey, shh! Hey!

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Hey! (shushing)

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The girls will hear us.

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Okay?

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No, no, no, hey.

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I still want to. I just-- we could just take it down a notch.

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What are we...?

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-What is this?
-Here, gags.

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Why, are we kidnapping people now?

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Here, this, too.

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-(muffled grunts)
-I bought them for us.

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ANDY: Huh.

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Hmm.

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(plastic rustling)

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(Andy grunting)

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(both moaning)

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(heavy grunting)

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♪ ♪

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ANDY: Oh, wow.

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Just wow.

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Mom?

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(growls)

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♪ ♪

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It's called the M-LTS,

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which stands for...

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something.

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It's a new neurological study

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at the University of Cornell.

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Oh, the Magnetic Temporoparietal Lobe Stimulator.

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Yes, I guess.

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It's, uh, the-the brain mapping that they're doing there.

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-Oh, right, the God Helmet?
-Actually, that's trademarked.

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So we've been asked not to call it that.

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-What is it?
-Using magnetic fields

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to probe regions of the brain.

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The Vatican's Pontificia Accademia

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delle Scienze has asked us to investigate it.

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-Why?
-It induces

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spiritual visions in subjects.

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Supposedly ten percent of the subjects

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convert to Christianity.

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The Holy See wants an analysis

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to see if these results are legitimate and

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warrant further examination.

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Or whether this should be dismissed as a hoax.

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-What kind of hoax?
-I don't know.

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But that's where you three come in.

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Just write up a report.

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This one should be easy.

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(indistinct chatter)

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The Low-Intensity Magnetic Temporoparietal Lobe Stimulator.

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What are you researching?

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Beta-amyloid plaque and tau proteins in the brain.

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Oh, for neurodegenerative disease.

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You're with the Vatican?

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No, I'm... with them.

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So you're mapping the brain?

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Uh, yes. It's not a study

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of the neurological basis for religion.

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That's just an artifact

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of stimulating the plenary gland and the parietal cortex.

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How many people have had spiritual experiences

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-while wearing it?
-Around 30%.

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The Vatican people

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said you wanted to interview some of them?

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We do.

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Um...

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I was walking down a road in the snow.

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And I felt someone walking beside me.

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So I looked toward it, but there was no one there.

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And I felt a hand on my shoulder.

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A man's hand.

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And I heard a whisper.

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(whispering): "You're going the wrong way.

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Turn around."

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Toward?

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I don't know.

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But I felt something I never felt before.

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Joy.

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And I hate using that word-- it sounds so religious-y.

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(chuckles softly)

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Is that a word?

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I put it on and immediately I was

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in this white sphere thing.

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And I was floating past the planets and the sun.

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And one person was walking towards me.

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He offered his hand and he said he was Keith Moon.

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The drummer?

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Yeah. I don't know why.

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But he was in Heaven and he said,

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"I didn't run over my chauffeur."

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-(chuckles)
-DAVID: And...

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-that was it?
-Yep.

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And... everything changed

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after that.

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I didn't feel so depressed anymore.

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Uh...

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It...

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(chuckles)

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It was, um...

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...beautiful.

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No words can describe-- it was...

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(exhales)

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(laughs)

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So, what do you think?

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I think they're a lot more persuasive

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than I thought they'd be.

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And their visions stayed with them.

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I mean, they're still talking about joy and God.

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Why are we here?

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What do you mean?

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Well, what does the Church want from this?

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My guess is, they're studying the varieties

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of religious experiences.

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Or are they trying to convert people using technology?

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I doubt that.

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Spirituality is more than just a triggering of a few synapses.

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But these people were changed.

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That woman-- her vision changed her life.

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No, getting treatment for her depression saved her life.

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So you're saying her vision had nothing to do with it?

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No, I'm saying her vision was collateral.

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The helmet stimulated her frontal lobe

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and alleviated her depression on a physiological level.

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Or the vision came first and the physiological effect second.

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Mm, Doctor?

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How else do we describe the miracle of coming out

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of depression, except with religious language?

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Our vocabulary for the sublime is entirely

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informed by spirituality.

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Father?

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Okay. I'm ready.

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For?

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The next session. Who's up first?

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The archdiocese said you wanted to be subjects.

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Well, I'm ready.

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Nice of the bishop to mention that to us.

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-If you don't want to do it...
-BEN: No.

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I do. Ready.

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Ben, are you serious?

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I want to see God.

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Who wouldn't want to see God? Let's do it.

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So, what is this, a Faraday cage?

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-It's my modification.
-Oh.

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It shields out EMF emissions.

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-You sure you want
to go through with this, Ben?
-Are you kidding me?

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A chance to see God and Keith Moon?

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Come on, how could I pass that up, right?

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-How's the fit?
-Good.

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It's not supposed to be too heavy,

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-or you'll be too aware of it.
-Uh-huh.

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Okay.

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Here we go.

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Count back from 40, please.

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40...

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39... 38...

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37... 36...

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35... 34...

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33...

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How long does it take?

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Just a few seconds.

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-Will you know when
or if he has a vision?
-Maybe.

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-From his, uh, EEG.
-(beeping)

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It mimics REM sleep.

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Huh.

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Something wrong?

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(typing)

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(sobbing)

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♪ ♪

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-What's wrong?
-I don't know.

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We may just have one electrode loose.

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-Let me... adjust.
-Ben, are you okay?

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Yeah. Great.

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Just having a nice sleep.

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So no visions of Hell?

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No, not yet, but...

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LIYANA: But what?

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(chuckles)

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But I'm in my head.

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And that's why I'm seeing you.

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You're seeing me now because you rejected

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everything I was for.

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Are you kidding me, Mom?

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-You wanted me
to be a scientist.
-No.

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I wanted you to understand science.

267
00:13:50,429 --> 00:13:51,964
But not reject Allah.

268
00:13:52,031 --> 00:13:53,432
I didn't reject Allah.

269
00:13:53,499 --> 00:13:54,967
Allah rejected me.

270
00:13:55,034 --> 00:13:57,436
I don't want to talk about this.

271
00:13:57,503 --> 00:13:59,205
(grunts)

272
00:13:59,271 --> 00:14:01,006
Why are you here?

273
00:14:01,073 --> 00:14:03,008
Take my hand?

274
00:14:03,075 --> 00:14:04,310
Why?

275
00:14:04,376 --> 00:14:06,111
What a son. Stop being so contrary.

276
00:14:06,178 --> 00:14:07,479
Take my hand.

277
00:14:17,590 --> 00:14:19,925
Where are we now?

278
00:14:19,992 --> 00:14:22,261
In Vijapur, where you were born.

279
00:14:22,328 --> 00:14:24,196
Wow.

280
00:14:24,263 --> 00:14:26,031
Oh, I haven't been here

281
00:14:26,098 --> 00:14:28,467
since I was six years old.

282
00:14:28,534 --> 00:14:30,469
It looks poor.

283
00:14:30,536 --> 00:14:32,871
When did you become so contentious?

284
00:14:32,938 --> 00:14:34,473
(laughs)

285
00:14:34,540 --> 00:14:36,408
You're right.

286
00:14:36,475 --> 00:14:38,944
Let me hear your prayers.

287
00:14:39,011 --> 00:14:40,479
(groans)

288
00:14:40,546 --> 00:14:42,581
(praying in Arabic)

289
00:14:45,150 --> 00:14:46,085
Hmm?

290
00:14:46,151 --> 00:14:48,520
See, was that so hard?

291
00:14:50,256 --> 00:14:53,058
Are you in Heaven, Mom?

292
00:14:53,125 --> 00:14:55,961
I think I'm supposed to see God here.

293
00:14:56,028 --> 00:14:58,897
Yes, Heaven.

294
00:14:58,964 --> 00:15:01,200
-But you can't see God.
-Why not?

295
00:15:01,267 --> 00:15:04,136
-Because you don't believe.
-Okay, if I saw,
I might believe.

296
00:15:04,203 --> 00:15:06,505
No, you won't. I know you-- you're stubborn.

297
00:15:06,572 --> 00:15:08,974
-I always said that.
-You made me stubborn.

298
00:15:09,041 --> 00:15:11,310
(clucks tongue)

299
00:15:11,377 --> 00:15:13,512
Who's that?

300
00:15:13,579 --> 00:15:15,547
One of the prostitutes from the neighborhood.

301
00:15:15,614 --> 00:15:17,549
BEN: Oh, yeah.

302
00:15:17,616 --> 00:15:19,485
They came out at 10:00.

303
00:15:19,551 --> 00:15:21,153
Do you remember what I said to you?

304
00:15:21,220 --> 00:15:23,422
No.

305
00:15:23,489 --> 00:15:25,591
No, yeah. The feet?

306
00:15:25,658 --> 00:15:27,693
That's right.

307
00:15:27,760 --> 00:15:30,496
Look down at her feet.

308
00:15:38,304 --> 00:15:40,339
It's a ghost.

309
00:15:48,314 --> 00:15:50,616
Mom-Mom, Mom. What is-- what is it, Mom?

310
00:15:50,683 --> 00:15:52,584
-What is that?
-I can't help you.

311
00:15:52,651 --> 00:15:54,987
Mom. Mom, what do you mean?

312
00:15:55,054 --> 00:15:56,989
-(snarls)
-(screams)

313
00:15:57,056 --> 00:15:59,291
Hey, give yourself a few seconds.

314
00:15:59,358 --> 00:16:00,959
-You okay?
-DAVID: What happened?

315
00:16:01,026 --> 00:16:02,194
-What'd you see?
-I couldn't get away from...

316
00:16:02,261 --> 00:16:03,562
I couldn't get away...

317
00:16:03,629 --> 00:16:05,164
You couldn't get away from what?

318
00:16:05,230 --> 00:16:07,266
Ben?

319
00:16:11,270 --> 00:16:12,404
Could be a vestigial reaction

320
00:16:12,471 --> 00:16:13,572
from being stuck in that basement.

321
00:16:14,707 --> 00:16:18,110
I thought the helmet only provoked positive reactions.

322
00:16:18,177 --> 00:16:19,511
For the most significant sampling, yes.

323
00:16:19,578 --> 00:16:21,280
As we've, uh,

324
00:16:21,347 --> 00:16:23,749
expanded our data collection, we're starting to see

325
00:16:23,816 --> 00:16:25,751
some participants experience...

326
00:16:25,818 --> 00:16:27,720
counter-positive reactions.

327
00:16:27,786 --> 00:16:29,621
-Like what?
-Grief, sadness,

328
00:16:29,688 --> 00:16:32,458
darkness, uh, meaninglessness.

329
00:16:33,559 --> 00:16:35,094
So some see Heaven.

330
00:16:35,160 --> 00:16:36,495
Others see Hell?

331
00:16:36,562 --> 00:16:38,630
It's not a word that I would use.

332
00:16:55,147 --> 00:16:57,149
♪ ♪

333
00:17:25,511 --> 00:17:27,546
♪ ♪

334
00:17:54,573 --> 00:17:56,608
♪ ♪

335
00:18:17,229 --> 00:18:19,465
Oops.

336
00:18:19,531 --> 00:18:21,733
We should talk.

337
00:18:28,440 --> 00:18:30,342
I'm here.

338
00:18:32,945 --> 00:18:34,780
Go ahead.

339
00:18:43,789 --> 00:18:45,657
You recognize that?

340
00:18:46,892 --> 00:18:49,461
A hand?

341
00:18:49,528 --> 00:18:51,763
That you splashed with your "holy water."

342
00:18:51,830 --> 00:18:53,665
That's right.

343
00:18:53,732 --> 00:18:56,468
During your "exorcism."

344
00:18:56,535 --> 00:18:58,637
But it wasn't holy water.

345
00:18:58,704 --> 00:19:00,606
It was ammonia.

346
00:19:00,672 --> 00:19:03,175
Huh.

347
00:19:03,242 --> 00:19:05,277
Yeah, "huh."

348
00:19:06,745 --> 00:19:08,780
Ammonia like this.

349
00:19:10,983 --> 00:19:12,818
Here, let me show you.

350
00:19:14,453 --> 00:19:16,255
Put out your hand.

351
00:19:16,321 --> 00:19:18,857
Sure.

352
00:19:28,901 --> 00:19:31,336
How come I've never heard of you?

353
00:19:32,638 --> 00:19:34,806
Because I'm a nun.

354
00:19:35,807 --> 00:19:37,643
(chuckles softly)

355
00:19:37,709 --> 00:19:40,379
Do you know what's black and white and red all over?

356
00:19:42,681 --> 00:19:45,784
(laughing): A decapitated nun.

357
00:19:48,287 --> 00:19:50,689
Your move.

358
00:19:51,790 --> 00:19:54,560
Well, now that we've established that your little...

359
00:19:54,626 --> 00:19:57,429
holy water magic trick was just ammonia

360
00:19:57,496 --> 00:20:00,499
and that God has no power on this Earth...

361
00:20:00,566 --> 00:20:02,601
And that Jesus could never really survive

362
00:20:02,668 --> 00:20:04,636
his fall from the parapet.

363
00:20:06,305 --> 00:20:09,241
Perhaps we should discuss your future.

364
00:20:09,308 --> 00:20:10,876
My future?

365
00:20:10,943 --> 00:20:13,712
I don't think you have anything to offer there.

366
00:20:13,779 --> 00:20:15,547
Oh, you might be surprised.

367
00:20:15,614 --> 00:20:18,283
God gives you His reward in Heaven.

368
00:20:18,350 --> 00:20:20,886
But on this Earth...

369
00:20:20,953 --> 00:20:23,655
your ass is mine.

370
00:20:26,024 --> 00:20:28,860
You know where to find me.

371
00:20:30,729 --> 00:20:33,231
(laughs)

372
00:20:52,317 --> 00:20:54,453
Oh, my spiritual advisor, how are you?

373
00:20:54,519 --> 00:20:56,021
What are you doing here?

374
00:20:56,088 --> 00:20:59,658
I've been having the most enlightening conversation.

375
00:20:59,725 --> 00:21:02,294
I think the Church is too hard on its nuns.

376
00:21:03,328 --> 00:21:05,364
I think they're sexy.

377
00:21:11,370 --> 00:21:12,671
Sister?

378
00:21:12,738 --> 00:21:14,806
-Are you all right?
-Yes.

379
00:21:14,873 --> 00:21:16,541
I-I saw Leland.

380
00:21:16,608 --> 00:21:18,710
We were talking.

381
00:21:18,777 --> 00:21:21,279
He talks quite a bit.

382
00:21:21,346 --> 00:21:23,415
-Did he hurt you?
-No.

383
00:21:23,482 --> 00:21:25,517
But we have to talk.

384
00:21:26,585 --> 00:21:28,687
Father, I need you to leave.

385
00:21:31,790 --> 00:21:33,792
We need to work harder on your meditations.

386
00:21:33,859 --> 00:21:35,460
Why?

387
00:21:35,527 --> 00:21:37,829
Our enemy has become more aggressive.

388
00:21:39,097 --> 00:21:41,667
We need to prepare.

389
00:21:41,733 --> 00:21:43,335
What are you talking about?

390
00:21:43,402 --> 00:21:44,970
Mom loved you.

391
00:21:45,037 --> 00:21:46,805
Yeah, but she was disappointed in me, wasn't she?

392
00:21:46,872 --> 00:21:49,441
She was disappointed in everyone who wasn't her.

393
00:21:49,508 --> 00:21:50,976
She always had unrealistic expectations for us...

394
00:21:51,043 --> 00:21:53,311
But when I dropped out of college, she...

395
00:21:53,378 --> 00:21:55,414
Ben, what is this about?

396
00:21:57,382 --> 00:21:59,951
Nothing, she-- I just had a dream about her...

397
00:22:00,018 --> 00:22:01,987
You're always the one telling me to ignore my dreams.

398
00:22:02,054 --> 00:22:03,955
Can I go to sleep now?

399
00:22:05,724 --> 00:22:08,627
She was disappointed that I ignored Shahada, right?

400
00:22:08,694 --> 00:22:10,962
Ben, let it go.

401
00:22:13,131 --> 00:22:15,500
When she died...

402
00:22:15,567 --> 00:22:17,369
did she say anything?

403
00:22:17,436 --> 00:22:19,371
-I'm not doing this. Good night. -Karima...

404
00:22:27,646 --> 00:22:29,648
So, last night?

405
00:22:30,916 --> 00:22:33,385
Yeah, you dirty rat.

406
00:22:37,022 --> 00:22:39,124
Can I say, Kris, you've changed.

407
00:22:39,191 --> 00:22:41,026
In what way?

408
00:22:41,093 --> 00:22:42,994
Come on, the masks, the gags,

409
00:22:43,061 --> 00:22:44,930
the, um, the burns.

410
00:22:44,996 --> 00:22:47,833
I mean, what is going on?

411
00:22:47,899 --> 00:22:49,768
Don't you remember when we were climbing,

412
00:22:49,835 --> 00:22:51,703
the things we used to say?

413
00:22:51,770 --> 00:22:54,506
We're never gonna turn into some boring suburban couple?

414
00:22:54,573 --> 00:22:56,675
-Yeah.
-So I haven't changed.

415
00:22:56,742 --> 00:22:58,009
I just changed back.

416
00:22:58,076 --> 00:23:00,479
Hey, could we get another cashier here?!

417
00:23:00,545 --> 00:23:02,114
-There's a line!
-Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.

418
00:23:02,180 --> 00:23:04,483
-Kris, it's okay.
-No, Andy.

419
00:23:04,549 --> 00:23:06,852
This is who we were. We didn't give a fuck.

420
00:23:06,918 --> 00:23:10,055
Yeah, sure, but we can't go through life that way.

421
00:23:10,122 --> 00:23:12,657
Sure, we can. I can.

422
00:23:14,126 --> 00:23:15,827
(sighs)

423
00:23:15,894 --> 00:23:18,563
So I was putting the masks back in the closet,

424
00:23:18,630 --> 00:23:20,766
and, uh, I found a shoebox...

425
00:23:20,832 --> 00:23:23,168
-MAN: Yeah. I'm getting...
-Hey, hey, hey, hey, buddy?

426
00:23:23,235 --> 00:23:25,737
-Line's back there.
-Uh, I just got a couple
of things.

427
00:23:25,804 --> 00:23:27,038
No, you don't. You got more than us.

428
00:23:27,105 --> 00:23:28,640
Guys, can we just not sweat this, okay?

429
00:23:28,707 --> 00:23:30,742
I'm here. Slow your roll.

430
00:23:30,809 --> 00:23:33,678
(scoffs) He wants us to slow our roll?

431
00:23:33,745 --> 00:23:36,948
Excuse me.

432
00:23:37,015 --> 00:23:40,786
You get to the back of the line right now.

433
00:23:40,852 --> 00:23:42,888
Or what?

434
00:23:42,954 --> 00:23:44,956
Seriously, what? What are you gonna do?

435
00:23:45,023 --> 00:23:47,092
Uh-huh.

436
00:23:47,159 --> 00:23:49,027
Show me your car, I'll show you mine.

437
00:23:49,094 --> 00:23:50,629
Okay, it's... you know what, tiger?

438
00:23:50,695 --> 00:23:52,197
Let it go, let it go, let it go, hey, hey.

439
00:23:52,264 --> 00:23:53,965
It's okay. Karma will get him.

440
00:23:54,032 --> 00:23:55,901
Yeah, that's right. Karma.

441
00:23:55,967 --> 00:23:58,003
Think I forgot something anyway.

442
00:23:59,771 --> 00:24:01,206
CASHIER: Next.

443
00:24:18,156 --> 00:24:20,125
Oh, my God, it's over, bitch!

444
00:24:24,095 --> 00:24:25,797
We won't need a bag.

445
00:24:25,864 --> 00:24:27,599
Thank you. Andy?

446
00:24:39,744 --> 00:24:41,780
WOMAN: It was just black.

447
00:24:42,781 --> 00:24:44,783
When you put the helmet on me, that's all I saw.

448
00:24:44,850 --> 00:24:46,985
I don't know if it was for an hour

449
00:24:47,052 --> 00:24:49,521
or for five minutes, but...

450
00:24:49,588 --> 00:24:51,089
I didn't think it was working on me.

451
00:24:53,925 --> 00:24:55,961
And then I felt something.

452
00:24:56,027 --> 00:24:57,929
What?

453
00:24:59,331 --> 00:25:01,867
A mouth.

454
00:25:01,933 --> 00:25:03,935
Like an animal.

455
00:25:05,704 --> 00:25:07,205
It clamped down on my hand, and...

456
00:25:07,272 --> 00:25:08,907
I screamed out.

457
00:25:08,974 --> 00:25:11,209
I thought maybe it was something

458
00:25:11,276 --> 00:25:13,078
on the chair that cut into me, but...

459
00:25:13,144 --> 00:25:15,747
then it started dragging me.

460
00:25:18,083 --> 00:25:20,118
And I...

461
00:25:21,853 --> 00:25:23,255
Do you need a minute?

462
00:25:23,321 --> 00:25:25,724
Mm-mm, no.

463
00:25:28,994 --> 00:25:31,696
It dropped me into a pool of tar.

464
00:25:31,763 --> 00:25:34,165
And when I looked up, I saw this...

465
00:25:34,232 --> 00:25:37,936
massive thing with wings.

466
00:25:38,003 --> 00:25:40,538
About ten stories tall.

467
00:25:40,605 --> 00:25:43,541
And it was covered with...

468
00:25:43,608 --> 00:25:46,177
naked people...

469
00:25:46,244 --> 00:25:49,781
stuck to it, screaming.

470
00:25:56,121 --> 00:25:58,156
There are no physical consequences.

471
00:25:58,223 --> 00:26:00,258
And any psychological aftereffects?

472
00:26:00,325 --> 00:26:02,928
These are the, uh, post-experiment evaluations.

473
00:26:02,994 --> 00:26:04,796
Feel free to go through them.

474
00:26:04,863 --> 00:26:07,899
The subjects occasionally experience residual nightmares,

475
00:26:07,966 --> 00:26:09,567
but, uh, otherwise they're fine.

476
00:26:09,634 --> 00:26:10,602
Even who we just interviewed?

477
00:26:10,669 --> 00:26:11,836
Yes.

478
00:26:11,903 --> 00:26:13,772
So, do either of you want to go?

479
00:26:13,838 --> 00:26:15,974
-Or are you done?
-Yeah, I'll go.

480
00:26:16,041 --> 00:26:19,344
Kristen, we just spoke to someone who saw Hell.

481
00:26:19,411 --> 00:26:21,947
Then it's a good thing I don't believe in it.

482
00:26:22,914 --> 00:26:25,784
This is a simple conductive adhesive for the electrodes.

483
00:26:25,850 --> 00:26:27,886
Okay.

484
00:26:31,089 --> 00:26:33,925
Huh. Uh... wait.

485
00:26:33,992 --> 00:26:35,827
What's wrong?

486
00:26:35,894 --> 00:26:38,229
For some reason it's not registering you.

487
00:26:38,296 --> 00:26:41,299
Because I don't have a soul?

488
00:26:51,343 --> 00:26:53,244
Let me go first, Kristen.

489
00:26:53,311 --> 00:26:54,913
Why?

490
00:26:54,980 --> 00:26:56,247
I thought you weren't going to do this at all.

491
00:26:56,314 --> 00:26:57,749
I-I changed my mind.

492
00:26:57,816 --> 00:26:58,917
I'm fine, David.

493
00:26:58,984 --> 00:27:00,285
No, I-I want to.

494
00:27:00,352 --> 00:27:02,053
Please.

495
00:27:04,723 --> 00:27:06,958
47... 46...

496
00:27:07,025 --> 00:27:08,059
Maybe David shouldn't do this.

497
00:27:08,126 --> 00:27:09,627
DAVID: 45...

498
00:27:09,694 --> 00:27:11,296
No, it's just a neurological experiment.

499
00:27:11,363 --> 00:27:12,764
He'll be fine.

500
00:27:12,831 --> 00:27:15,700
42... 41...

501
00:27:15,767 --> 00:27:17,769
40...

502
00:27:17,836 --> 00:27:22,107
39... 38...

503
00:27:22,173 --> 00:27:26,244
37... 36...

504
00:27:26,311 --> 00:27:28,646
35...

505
00:27:49,200 --> 00:27:51,236
♪ ♪

506
00:28:04,249 --> 00:28:06,951
(whispers): Don't.

507
00:28:07,018 --> 00:28:08,953
Kristen.

508
00:28:09,020 --> 00:28:11,389
(door opens)

509
00:28:11,456 --> 00:28:12,690
(door shuts)

510
00:28:13,858 --> 00:28:15,360
Kristen Bouchard.

511
00:28:15,427 --> 00:28:17,362
I take it you got my gift basket.

512
00:28:17,429 --> 00:28:19,697
I told you to stay away.

513
00:28:19,764 --> 00:28:21,199
But you didn't mean it.

514
00:28:21,266 --> 00:28:23,168
You love attention from men,

515
00:28:23,234 --> 00:28:24,436
especially with all these months alone.

516
00:28:24,502 --> 00:28:27,439
I told you to stay away,

517
00:28:27,505 --> 00:28:29,240
or I would kill you.

518
00:28:29,307 --> 00:28:30,942
You come into my house to threaten me?

519
00:28:31,009 --> 00:28:34,279
No, the threat was already made.

520
00:28:34,345 --> 00:28:36,214
I'm here to deliver on it.

521
00:28:36,281 --> 00:28:40,852
Well, I'm sure the police will be thrilled to hear about this.

522
00:28:41,820 --> 00:28:43,054
(shuddering)

523
00:28:43,121 --> 00:28:44,489
-(gasps)
-(screams)

524
00:28:44,556 --> 00:28:46,057
(groaning)

525
00:28:55,233 --> 00:28:57,836
(screams)

526
00:28:57,902 --> 00:28:59,938
(gasping)

527
00:29:06,144 --> 00:29:08,313
(door opens and shuts)

528
00:29:10,348 --> 00:29:12,250
(screams)

529
00:29:12,317 --> 00:29:13,985
CAL: Hold on, you're okay, David.

530
00:29:14,052 --> 00:29:15,153
Hold on.

531
00:29:15,220 --> 00:29:16,754
You're okay, David.

532
00:29:16,821 --> 00:29:18,323
-Let me just detach this.
-What was that?

533
00:29:18,389 --> 00:29:20,458
What was that? What the hell...?

534
00:29:20,525 --> 00:29:22,460
BEN: What happened, what happened? What-what did you see?

535
00:29:22,527 --> 00:29:24,762
(panting)

536
00:29:33,004 --> 00:29:35,039
Just...

537
00:29:42,247 --> 00:29:44,282
(footfalls approaching)

538
00:29:45,583 --> 00:29:47,819
What did you see, David?

539
00:29:49,554 --> 00:29:52,023
You.

540
00:29:52,090 --> 00:29:55,326
Me? Doing what?

541
00:29:56,327 --> 00:29:58,363
Killing LeRoux.

542
00:30:01,232 --> 00:30:03,835
(chuckles)

543
00:30:03,902 --> 00:30:05,370
Was that Heaven or Hell?

544
00:30:05,436 --> 00:30:09,807
You took an ax, you went to his house...

545
00:30:10,975 --> 00:30:13,044
...and you killed him.

546
00:30:16,581 --> 00:30:21,219
Wow, that seems... unlikely.

547
00:30:21,286 --> 00:30:23,922
That's what I saw.

548
00:30:25,223 --> 00:30:27,158
I got to go.

549
00:30:27,225 --> 00:30:29,093
Why?

550
00:30:29,160 --> 00:30:32,130
I, uh, I have an, uh...

551
00:30:33,131 --> 00:30:35,300
...an appointment.

552
00:30:45,176 --> 00:30:46,511
He knew.

553
00:30:46,578 --> 00:30:48,046
He saw me do it.

554
00:30:48,112 --> 00:30:49,881
-Thi-This is your priest friend?
-Yes.

555
00:30:49,948 --> 00:30:52,417
So, we're testing this brain-mapping device,

556
00:30:52,483 --> 00:30:55,153
and he saw me go to LeRoux's house

557
00:30:55,220 --> 00:30:56,921
-and kill him.
-Well,

558
00:30:56,988 --> 00:30:58,323
he obviously sensed your guilt and intuited the rest.

559
00:30:58,389 --> 00:31:00,325
No, the details were too specific.

560
00:31:00,391 --> 00:31:03,494
He... knew about the ice ax, LeRoux's house.

561
00:31:03,561 --> 00:31:05,029
But he knows you-you were a climber,

562
00:31:05,096 --> 00:31:06,931
so an ice ax makes sense, and he probably

563
00:31:06,998 --> 00:31:09,267
saw LeRoux's house on the news.

564
00:31:09,334 --> 00:31:11,269
Kristen.

565
00:31:11,336 --> 00:31:13,438
(sighs) I think you should consider going to him

566
00:31:13,504 --> 00:31:15,440
and telling him the truth about LeRoux.

567
00:31:15,506 --> 00:31:16,574
What? Why?

568
00:31:16,641 --> 00:31:17,609
Well, not for religious reasons

569
00:31:17,675 --> 00:31:19,110
but for pragmatic ones.

570
00:31:19,177 --> 00:31:21,913
The placebo effect of confessing,

571
00:31:21,980 --> 00:31:25,149
of coming clean to someone you consider an authority--

572
00:31:25,216 --> 00:31:29,954
moral authority-- will alleviate your psychosomatic symptoms.

573
00:31:32,690 --> 00:31:35,260
Does that make sense?

574
00:31:35,326 --> 00:31:37,462
I think it does.

575
00:31:47,472 --> 00:31:49,507
DAVID: I'll be right there.

576
00:31:50,608 --> 00:31:53,011
I thought I tied that.

577
00:31:54,712 --> 00:31:56,948
(door opens)

578
00:31:58,249 --> 00:31:59,384
Oh, hey, Kristen, come on in.

579
00:31:59,450 --> 00:32:00,652
(panting)

580
00:32:00,718 --> 00:32:02,253
You can help me with this.

581
00:32:02,320 --> 00:32:03,554
DAVID: Kristen!

582
00:32:05,123 --> 00:32:08,159
(screams)

583
00:32:09,193 --> 00:32:11,229
(panting)

584
00:32:12,497 --> 00:32:13,631
Are you all right?

585
00:32:13,698 --> 00:32:14,999
What?

586
00:32:15,066 --> 00:32:16,134
What happened?

587
00:32:16,200 --> 00:32:17,302
DAVID: You were screaming.

588
00:32:17,368 --> 00:32:19,237
I was?

589
00:32:19,304 --> 00:32:22,140
Uh, wh-when-when did I put this on?

590
00:32:22,206 --> 00:32:23,274
When did you go?

591
00:32:23,341 --> 00:32:24,642
Go where?

592
00:32:24,709 --> 00:32:27,045
Uh, your session with-with the, with the helmet--

593
00:32:27,111 --> 00:32:28,546
-wh-when did you do it?
-I haven't.

594
00:32:28,613 --> 00:32:31,282
We were thinking tomorrow.

595
00:32:32,283 --> 00:32:34,419
Didn't I start to put this on,

596
00:32:34,485 --> 00:32:36,587
and then y-you said you wanted to go first?

597
00:32:36,654 --> 00:32:39,457
-No.
-Is that what you saw--

598
00:32:39,524 --> 00:32:41,159
David putting the helmet on?

599
00:32:41,225 --> 00:32:42,694
Yeah.

600
00:32:42,760 --> 00:32:44,729
And I saw him having a vision, too.

601
00:32:44,796 --> 00:32:46,364
What vision?

602
00:32:46,431 --> 00:32:48,366
Uh...

603
00:32:48,433 --> 00:32:51,302
Well, nothing. I mean, I-I-I-I, I don't remember,

604
00:32:51,369 --> 00:32:53,404
but we talked afterwards, after the vision,

605
00:32:53,471 --> 00:32:56,574
and then I had an emergency therapy session,

606
00:32:56,641 --> 00:32:59,711
and then I went to your room and Leland was there...

607
00:32:59,777 --> 00:33:01,713
None of that happened?

608
00:33:01,779 --> 00:33:04,215
No, you've-- you haven't left.

609
00:33:04,282 --> 00:33:06,184
You-You've been here.

610
00:33:06,250 --> 00:33:09,087
(panting)

611
00:33:12,824 --> 00:33:14,359
You okay?

612
00:33:14,425 --> 00:33:16,494
Yeah, I... I got to go.

613
00:33:24,435 --> 00:33:27,505
I, uh, I-I did this once before.

614
00:33:27,572 --> 00:33:29,040
What do you mean?

615
00:33:29,107 --> 00:33:31,275
Uh, we're testing a brain-mapping device,

616
00:33:31,342 --> 00:33:34,445
and I saw myself sitting across from you

617
00:33:34,512 --> 00:33:35,780
in an emergency session.

618
00:33:35,847 --> 00:33:37,014
-(chuckles): Really?
-Yeah.

619
00:33:37,081 --> 00:33:38,249
How'd that go?

620
00:33:38,316 --> 00:33:40,785
Well, I told you that my friend David

621
00:33:40,852 --> 00:33:44,455
saw me hurting LeRoux.

622
00:33:45,456 --> 00:33:47,058
He saw you?

623
00:33:47,125 --> 00:33:49,227
In my vision, in the session.

624
00:33:49,293 --> 00:33:52,130
Yeah, that's your, your guilt coming out.

625
00:33:52,196 --> 00:33:54,098
That's what you said in my vision, too.

626
00:33:54,165 --> 00:33:55,433
Did I have any advice in your vision?

627
00:33:55,500 --> 00:33:58,069
Yes, you told me that I should go to David

628
00:33:58,136 --> 00:34:00,238
and confess to him for the placebo effect

629
00:34:00,304 --> 00:34:01,739
of alleviating my guilt.

630
00:34:01,806 --> 00:34:03,608
-Really?
-Yeah.

631
00:34:03,674 --> 00:34:07,612
Well, that's not my advice, but I think it's interesting

632
00:34:07,678 --> 00:34:10,047
that that's what you think my advice would be.

633
00:34:12,150 --> 00:34:13,484
You might have to unpack that for me.

634
00:34:13,551 --> 00:34:15,520
I feel like I'm in a house of mirrors here.

635
00:34:15,585 --> 00:34:18,688
You speak of David quite often in our sessions.

636
00:34:18,755 --> 00:34:19,791
Yeah, well, we work together. So?

637
00:34:19,857 --> 00:34:21,692
Well, your husband is back

638
00:34:21,759 --> 00:34:24,395
from nearly two months away, you haven't mentioned him once.

639
00:34:26,831 --> 00:34:28,766
Meaning?

640
00:34:28,833 --> 00:34:32,103
Reflect on what you want your life to be.

641
00:34:32,170 --> 00:34:34,472
In this moment.

642
00:34:34,539 --> 00:34:36,607
If it's your husband, it's your husband.

643
00:34:36,674 --> 00:34:39,510
If it's David, it's David.

644
00:34:40,511 --> 00:34:42,713
Why is it a guy at all?

645
00:34:42,780 --> 00:34:44,215
Yeah, you're right.

646
00:34:44,282 --> 00:34:46,417
Um, could be what they represent.

647
00:34:46,484 --> 00:34:48,286
Your husband: the responsibilities of home.

648
00:34:48,351 --> 00:34:50,420
David: the freedom of work.

649
00:34:50,487 --> 00:34:52,322
There's another option.

650
00:34:52,389 --> 00:34:53,724
David's becoming a priest,

651
00:34:53,791 --> 00:34:55,560
so therefore it's unobtainable attraction.

652
00:34:55,626 --> 00:34:58,563
True... or it's a challenge.

653
00:34:59,564 --> 00:35:01,332
How so?

654
00:35:01,399 --> 00:35:05,269
He doesn't become a priest, then he's not unobtainable.

655
00:35:15,313 --> 00:35:16,247
(knocking)

656
00:35:16,314 --> 00:35:18,115
Hey, I need a moment.

657
00:35:18,182 --> 00:35:19,884
Okay.

658
00:35:20,885 --> 00:35:23,120
Can I come in?

659
00:35:30,761 --> 00:35:32,797
Huh.

660
00:35:33,865 --> 00:35:35,800
This is nice.

661
00:35:35,867 --> 00:35:36,868
Kristen asked me to stay here.

662
00:35:36,934 --> 00:35:38,636
Hey, did I say anything?

663
00:35:38,703 --> 00:35:41,305
It was in the "huh." It was a very expressive "huh."

664
00:35:41,372 --> 00:35:44,375
Okay, how about you and I pretend we're complete strangers

665
00:35:44,442 --> 00:35:47,144
and we don't have any history, without any baggage?

666
00:35:47,211 --> 00:35:48,145
Can we do that?

667
00:35:48,212 --> 00:35:49,881
Sure.

668
00:35:49,947 --> 00:35:51,182
You start.

669
00:35:51,249 --> 00:35:53,684
(sighs): Okay.

670
00:35:57,722 --> 00:36:01,592
Um... so, listen, Kristen has changed.

671
00:36:01,659 --> 00:36:02,927
In what way?

672
00:36:02,994 --> 00:36:05,563
In every way.

673
00:36:05,630 --> 00:36:08,266
She beat up someone for cutting in line at a supermarket.

674
00:36:08,332 --> 00:36:09,634
(laughs) Really?

675
00:36:09,700 --> 00:36:11,269
Sheryl, that's not a good thing.

676
00:36:11,335 --> 00:36:12,637
She's more aggressive,

677
00:36:12,703 --> 00:36:14,505
she's more dismissive, she's more...

678
00:36:14,572 --> 00:36:16,908
she's more angry.

679
00:36:16,974 --> 00:36:18,342
Maybe she should be.

680
00:36:20,778 --> 00:36:24,715
You know I go away because that is our business, right?

681
00:36:24,782 --> 00:36:26,484
And if our business goes under,

682
00:36:26,551 --> 00:36:28,219
then we can't pay for the mortgage here.

683
00:36:28,286 --> 00:36:29,287
You were only supposed to be gone

684
00:36:29,353 --> 00:36:30,555
-for a few weeks.
-Right,

685
00:36:30,621 --> 00:36:32,523
and then the world economy changed.

686
00:36:32,590 --> 00:36:33,791
-Right, yeah.
-Right?

687
00:36:33,858 --> 00:36:35,426
Because climbing is a luxury item,

688
00:36:35,493 --> 00:36:36,861
-and we had ten people drop out.
-Uh-huh, uh-huh.

689
00:36:36,928 --> 00:36:38,496
I didn't go away for my own pleasure.

690
00:36:38,563 --> 00:36:40,498
Yeah, there are reasons for everything,

691
00:36:40,565 --> 00:36:42,433
but I am back here because Kristen is overwhelmed.

692
00:36:42,500 --> 00:36:43,868
She's working, she's being a mom,

693
00:36:43,935 --> 00:36:45,636
and you're wondering why she's changed.

694
00:36:45,703 --> 00:36:48,239
Because she's had to adapt.

695
00:36:48,306 --> 00:36:50,808
-Okay, so this is my fault?
-Yeah.

696
00:36:50,875 --> 00:36:52,843
You thought I'd say differently, right?

697
00:36:52,910 --> 00:36:54,245
But I won't.

698
00:36:54,312 --> 00:36:56,247
Yes, it's your fault.

699
00:37:02,687 --> 00:37:04,221
What?

700
00:37:04,288 --> 00:37:05,456
(sighs)

701
00:37:05,523 --> 00:37:09,226
No, that's... that's not right.

702
00:37:13,564 --> 00:37:15,967
-Sheryl?
-Huh?

703
00:37:16,033 --> 00:37:17,368
Are you okay?

704
00:37:17,435 --> 00:37:18,436
Yeah.

705
00:37:18,502 --> 00:37:19,470
(chuckles)

706
00:37:19,537 --> 00:37:22,873
Uh... (sighs, shudders)

707
00:37:27,678 --> 00:37:29,413
(laughs)

708
00:37:31,415 --> 00:37:34,418
This is a simple conductive adhesive for the electrodes.

709
00:37:34,485 --> 00:37:35,853
-You're sure about this?
-I think it's important

710
00:37:35,920 --> 00:37:37,455
for all of us to give a thorough assessment.

711
00:37:37,521 --> 00:37:38,923
You know, I've been getting a lot of requests

712
00:37:38,990 --> 00:37:40,925
from the Mormons to try it.

713
00:37:40,992 --> 00:37:42,960
They think it's a direct line to God.

714
00:37:43,027 --> 00:37:45,630
Well, if it's good enough for the Mormons...

715
00:37:45,696 --> 00:37:48,633
(chuckles) Okay.

716
00:37:55,573 --> 00:37:57,475
Count back from...

717
00:37:57,541 --> 00:38:00,611
50... 49...

718
00:38:00,678 --> 00:38:04,048
48... 47...

719
00:38:04,115 --> 00:38:07,018
46... 45...

720
00:38:07,084 --> 00:38:08,619
44...

721
00:38:08,686 --> 00:38:09,720
38...

722
00:38:09,787 --> 00:38:11,322
So what do you think?

723
00:38:11,389 --> 00:38:13,324
I'm an atheist, I saw my dead mother.

724
00:38:13,391 --> 00:38:15,926
You're an agnostic, you saw David have a vision.

725
00:38:15,993 --> 00:38:17,862
David is a believer.

726
00:38:17,928 --> 00:38:19,664
What does he see?

727
00:38:19,730 --> 00:38:20,931
31...

728
00:38:20,998 --> 00:38:22,299
I don't know.

729
00:38:22,366 --> 00:38:23,701
29...

730
00:38:23,768 --> 00:38:28,539
28... 27... 26...

731
00:38:28,606 --> 00:38:33,411
25... 24... 23...

732
00:38:34,879 --> 00:38:37,682
Three... two...

733
00:38:37,748 --> 00:38:39,784
one.

734
00:38:42,887 --> 00:38:44,689
Should I start over again?

735
00:38:44,755 --> 00:38:46,691
Did you get anything?

736
00:38:46,757 --> 00:38:49,093
Not a thing.

737
00:38:50,594 --> 00:38:53,631
Okay, I'm coming in to detach you.

738
00:38:55,833 --> 00:38:57,768
Well, that's appropriate.

739
00:38:57,835 --> 00:39:00,538
We get visions, the visionary gets nothing.

740
00:39:06,177 --> 00:39:08,546
I made a mistake.

741
00:39:09,547 --> 00:39:11,482
We were investigating a technology

742
00:39:11,549 --> 00:39:16,654
that supposedly gives nonbelievers a glimpse of God.

743
00:39:17,788 --> 00:39:21,892
It magnetically prods certain areas of the brain.

744
00:39:22,893 --> 00:39:25,129
I tried it.

745
00:39:25,196 --> 00:39:29,133
I wanted to see whether it could challenge my ideas of visions.

746
00:39:29,200 --> 00:39:31,769
And...?

747
00:39:31,836 --> 00:39:34,672
I saw nothing.

748
00:39:34,739 --> 00:39:38,142
Not God... or Hell.

749
00:39:38,209 --> 00:39:40,144
Because your visions are not coming

750
00:39:40,211 --> 00:39:42,012
from regions of your brain.

751
00:39:42,079 --> 00:39:44,548
They're coming from God.

752
00:39:46,784 --> 00:39:48,819
Now I can't see anything.

753
00:39:50,521 --> 00:39:55,526
I've tried for hours... meditating.

754
00:39:56,560 --> 00:39:57,828
Nothing's coming.

755
00:39:57,895 --> 00:40:02,166
Technology can rewire the brain.

756
00:40:02,233 --> 00:40:06,137
My guess is that you've lost everything you've gained.

757
00:40:07,505 --> 00:40:10,441
Now start over.

758
00:40:10,508 --> 00:40:12,643
And you'd better do it quickly

759
00:40:12,710 --> 00:40:15,646
because Mr. Townsend is coming after us

760
00:40:15,713 --> 00:40:19,750
and we need your abilities to know how to protect ourselves.

761
00:40:21,719 --> 00:40:23,654
And, David,

762
00:40:23,721 --> 00:40:27,658
don't use technology to rewire your brain again.

763
00:40:27,725 --> 00:40:30,027
It's not a toy.

764
00:40:36,934 --> 00:40:37,968
MARX: So...

765
00:40:38,969 --> 00:40:40,905
...what are your findings?

766
00:40:40,971 --> 00:40:42,907
After much deliberation,

767
00:40:42,973 --> 00:40:45,609
we do not recommend the technology for further research

768
00:40:45,676 --> 00:40:46,811
at the Vatican.

769
00:40:47,812 --> 00:40:48,779
-Why?
-Yeah,

770
00:40:48,846 --> 00:40:49,914
-wh-why?
-At the minimum

771
00:40:49,980 --> 00:40:52,149
the device reduces spirituality

772
00:40:52,216 --> 00:40:54,652
to the stimulation of synapses.

773
00:40:54,718 --> 00:40:57,488
It can also rewire the brain's receptivity to the work

774
00:40:57,555 --> 00:40:59,056
of the Holy Spirit.

775
00:40:59,123 --> 00:41:00,691
Last, a significant percentage of the participants

776
00:41:00,758 --> 00:41:04,161
are seeing visions of Hell.

777
00:41:04,228 --> 00:41:06,697
And is that a bad thing?

778
00:41:06,764 --> 00:41:07,998
Excuse me?

779
00:41:08,065 --> 00:41:09,500
Fear of Hell can lead people to God.

780
00:41:09,567 --> 00:41:11,902
Is their faith less legitimate?

781
00:41:11,969 --> 00:41:13,737
But is that the kind of faith we want to promote?

782
00:41:13,804 --> 00:41:15,773
Who are we to judge what brings someone into the fold?

783
00:41:15,840 --> 00:41:18,542
It sounds like the helmet's ability to help people

784
00:41:18,609 --> 00:41:21,579
directly envision the realities of our faith

785
00:41:21,645 --> 00:41:23,514
could be an asset for the Church.

786
00:41:23,581 --> 00:41:25,850
But the harm could undoubtedly outweigh any potential benefits.

787
00:41:25,916 --> 00:41:27,051
What's the evidence of this harm?

788
00:41:27,117 --> 00:41:29,220
-Well, you...
-KRISTEN: None.

789
00:41:29,286 --> 00:41:31,856
There's no concrete evidence to support that claim.

790
00:41:31,922 --> 00:41:33,891
Furthermore, the helmet offers the unique ability

791
00:41:33,958 --> 00:41:36,727
to help people suffering from neurological conditions,

792
00:41:36,794 --> 00:41:38,195
such as depression.

793
00:41:38,262 --> 00:41:39,830
That's a miracle in itself-- religious or not--

794
00:41:39,897 --> 00:41:41,498
and if people want to attribute

795
00:41:41,565 --> 00:41:44,602
those qualities to God, then, hey, lucky you.

796
00:41:44,668 --> 00:41:47,004
BEN: I-I saw my dead mom,

797
00:41:47,071 --> 00:41:48,806
and my experience may not classify

798
00:41:48,873 --> 00:41:52,576
as, uh, harm in the empirical sense, but it felt real

799
00:41:52,643 --> 00:41:55,012
and I've been having trouble sleeping ever since.

800
00:41:55,079 --> 00:41:56,714
KRISTEN: Yeah, but that's from your preexisting night terrors.

801
00:41:56,780 --> 00:41:58,015
I mean, we can't condemn the technology

802
00:41:58,082 --> 00:41:59,149
-for any preexisting...
-Okay.

803
00:41:59,216 --> 00:42:00,651
The question is a simple one.

804
00:42:00,718 --> 00:42:02,653
Should this technology be sent on

805
00:42:02,720 --> 00:42:05,689
to the Pontificia Accademia delle Scienze

806
00:42:05,756 --> 00:42:07,157
for further examination?

807
00:42:07,224 --> 00:42:08,959
-No.
-Yeah, absolutely.
-Maybe.

808
00:42:09,026 --> 00:42:11,061
Okay, this is helpful, thank you.

809
00:42:11,128 --> 00:42:14,265
Leave your research with me, and I'll make a decision.

810
00:42:15,232 --> 00:42:18,168
(ticking)

811
00:42:18,235 --> 00:42:21,739
(David breathing deeply)

812
00:42:39,723 --> 00:42:43,093
Please, God...

813
00:42:54,638 --> 00:42:56,674
(ticking continues)

814
00:43:07,751 --> 00:43:09,787
(water dripping)

815
00:43:12,756 --> 00:43:14,792
(sighs deeply)

816
00:43:16,894 --> 00:43:18,262
(knocking)

817
00:43:18,329 --> 00:43:20,998
-ANDY: Babe, can we talk?
-(sighs)

818
00:43:24,234 --> 00:43:25,836
Okay.

819
00:43:25,903 --> 00:43:27,838
(door opens)

820
00:43:27,905 --> 00:43:30,808
(Andy sighs)

821
00:43:32,209 --> 00:43:35,846
So... here's my suggestion.

822
00:43:36,847 --> 00:43:41,251
We sell the climbing business, and I take a job at REI.

823
00:43:41,318 --> 00:43:44,254
You quit your job at the Catholic Church,

824
00:43:44,321 --> 00:43:47,191
and, uh, we just focus more on home.

825
00:43:47,257 --> 00:43:48,859
We move Sheryl out of the garage,

826
00:43:48,926 --> 00:43:50,861
you take it back as an office.

827
00:43:50,928 --> 00:43:54,331
You always wanted to, uh, write that book on criminal defense.

828
00:43:54,398 --> 00:43:56,266
You've got a job offer from REI?

829
00:43:56,333 --> 00:43:58,369
No, I mean, not yet.

830
00:43:58,435 --> 00:44:00,404
Uh, but I know people who work there.

831
00:44:00,471 --> 00:44:01,805
On the sales floor?

832
00:44:01,872 --> 00:44:04,274
No, in the corporate offices.

833
00:44:04,341 --> 00:44:06,777
I'm talking about a nine-to-five job.

834
00:44:06,844 --> 00:44:07,845
This is something I should've done ten years ago.

835
00:44:07,911 --> 00:44:10,381
Why would I quit my job?

836
00:44:12,950 --> 00:44:14,985
Kristen.

837
00:44:16,153 --> 00:44:17,654
You have changed.

838
00:44:17,721 --> 00:44:19,957
And I think it's directly connected

839
00:44:20,024 --> 00:44:22,326
to the burden of carrying this family...

840
00:44:23,427 --> 00:44:25,796
...and this job.

841
00:44:25,863 --> 00:44:28,899
There is something in it that is making you...

842
00:44:30,501 --> 00:44:32,136
...different.

843
00:44:34,905 --> 00:44:36,840
It's making me tougher.

844
00:44:36,907 --> 00:44:38,175
It's making me more self-sufficient.

845
00:44:38,242 --> 00:44:39,977
You beat up a man at the supermarket.

846
00:44:40,044 --> 00:44:44,081
We're wearing animal masks to have sex now.

847
00:44:45,082 --> 00:44:46,383
Okay, this is what I suggest.

848
00:44:46,450 --> 00:44:48,185
You try to get a job at REI,

849
00:44:48,252 --> 00:44:50,320
and when you do, fine, then we'll sell the business

850
00:44:50,387 --> 00:44:51,955
and then we can talk,

851
00:44:52,022 --> 00:44:55,092
but this job-- my job-- is not the problem.

852
00:44:55,159 --> 00:44:57,227
It supplies our health care.

853
00:44:57,294 --> 00:44:58,462
It's our lifesaver.

854
00:45:06,303 --> 00:45:08,105
That's mine.

855
00:45:08,172 --> 00:45:12,276
Well, I didn't know what they were until Laura saw them...

856
00:45:12,342 --> 00:45:14,011
Laura saw them?

857
00:45:14,078 --> 00:45:16,814
She came into the room when I was looking.

858
00:45:16,880 --> 00:45:20,417
And she said that they were maps to kill people.

859
00:45:20,484 --> 00:45:23,120
Mm, no, they're not, they're not. It's...

860
00:45:23,187 --> 00:45:25,055
Then what are they?

861
00:45:25,122 --> 00:45:27,257
It-It's just... it's from therapy.

862
00:45:27,324 --> 00:45:28,959
It's a way to deal with anger.

863
00:45:29,026 --> 00:45:30,828
When people piss me off, I draw where they live.

864
00:45:30,894 --> 00:45:32,830
It's-it's meaningless, it-it's nothing.

865
00:45:32,896 --> 00:45:34,832
Your children don't know that.

866
00:45:39,336 --> 00:45:40,871
I need to talk to Laura.

867
00:45:40,938 --> 00:45:42,873
Not now, not-- tomorrow.

868
00:45:42,940 --> 00:45:44,308
-(crying)
-She's okay.

869
00:45:44,374 --> 00:45:46,076
She's fine.

870
00:45:46,143 --> 00:45:50,247
I explained to her that... parents don't mean things.

871
00:45:50,314 --> 00:45:53,250
They pretend.

872
00:45:53,317 --> 00:45:54,985
(crying)

873
00:45:55,052 --> 00:45:57,254
It's okay.

874
00:45:57,321 --> 00:45:59,356
We'll be okay.

875
00:46:00,357 --> 00:46:02,392
We'll be good.

876
00:46:09,967 --> 00:46:12,236
(Kristen exhaling)

877
00:46:41,598 --> 00:46:43,834
(opens drawer)

878
00:47:00,918 --> 00:47:04,221
♪ ♪

879
00:47:18,035 --> 00:47:19,570
(panting)

880
00:47:21,271 --> 00:47:23,307
(gasps)

881
00:47:31,415 --> 00:47:32,416
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882
00:47:54,508 --> 00:47:56,510
Untertitel von: Anja Graefe roup at WGBH access.wgbh.org
